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Wow...today is month 2. New workouts, new intensity. I felt like I was back to the beginning where I did a post titled, Ha! It was so hard. I couldn't do every move. Today was also the third fit test. My numbers went up in every category. Again, some more than others. But I am definitely stronger. All told, I worked out for almost an hour and a half. That's a really long time. I also spent most of today worrying about whether I'd die doing it! Obviously, I didn't. I made it and there's something to be said for starting a new habit and sticking with it for a while. I know I'm going to get stronger again. I know that while today's workout kicked my butt, it will be easier next time. I don't know if I'll ever be able to do every move but it will get easier. That's a confidence that feels nice to have.
I also like that it's hard again. I like that I know I'm doing a workout that pushes me. This is what I don't do when I leave myself to my own devices. I don't push myself at all. Even if I improve, I don't see what I'm capable of. This week doesn't feel hard to fit it in. It feels doable even if the workouts are longer. I know I'm going to do it this week and feel good about it. The only day I'm worried about is Saturday. I'm doing Relay for Life and will be basically up all night on Friday. Oh well... a power nap will pull me through. That's the other nice thing I've learned and internalized on this journey. Some days, my 100% isn't as good as my previous day's 100%. Before, I would have just quit or done nothing because why do something when you're not going to do it amazingly. This obviously wasn't good because something is always better than nothing. I would quit something and then usually spiral and need two weeks to get back on track. The calendar has kept me focused and filling in the boxes has been highly motivating. Even if it's not the best workout I've ever done, I do it.
So here's to day 36 done and in the books.