The Man Behind the Curtain

The dvd's didn't arrive yesterday much to my dismay. To make matters worse, there was a box on the front porch...imagine my excitement to then be dashed by the fact that it was Zach's laundry that he left at Nana's...awesome.
So what did I do? Did I rally and exercise what I normally do anyway? Eat really healthy? Take the encouragement from my dear friend Audrey and Sara and say that it doesn't matter...today can be day one? Nope...I continued to place my faith in the magic of the dvd's coming in the mail. I couldn't possibly officially start; they haven't arrived. Plus, I'm going to see Dream Girls tonight and happy hour before. It doesn't sound fun to be on an eating plan when I do that. Right? I'm so full of reasons, it's amazing. I'll find a loop hole in anything.
In my all time favorite movie, The Wizard of Oz, the wizard is revered. He's the one that can fix all your problems. Are you old enough to remember what a big deal it was when that came on around Easter. We weren't raised with buying every movie that comes out. What a luxury to buy a VHS tape! Who did that? So when that movie came on once a year, it was time to pop popcorn and enjoy it before it was gone again for a year. At the end, Dorothy realized that she was the one that had it all along. I think I use every next program as the man behind the curtain. The very next thing will be what is going to extinguish those last 10 pounds. I'm not sure if I am Dorothy or if it's in me all along. I'm 34 years old, wouldn't I have figured this out by now? I'm a great teacher, a decent mom, a nice spouse...I can do anything I put my mind to...except this.
I'm going to hold out until this man behind the curtain arrives and call that day one. It makes me feel better...hopefully he will come today. I'm ready to meet him and see what's inside me in the next 60 days.